Random Fact #1

Just like the title above, today i wanna share with you one random fact about me :)
Its kinda embarrassing, but i think that's fine *LOL*

So,
I'm 17 years old and I'm Chinese, but i can't speak any Chinese languages ...

 
Yes, that's absolutely true 
Do i proud with it ? NO !
But fortunately I still can understand some words in Chinese languages :P

When I was a kid, my mom and dad were so busy with their job and I had my own baby sitter, so my baby sitter wasn't a Chinese person, so of course she communicated with me in Indonesia language. Then, I studied Mandarin for the very first time when i was about in 4th grade or 5th grade in elementary school, and it was only the basic one.
Then, when i was about 11 or 12 years old, I studied at this one school that known best for its Mandarin language. I studied there for almost 6 years now (3 years for Junior High School, almost another 3 years for Senior High School) and guess what ?
I just still can't speak in any Chinese language 

Couple of years ago, I just felt like I was so damn stupid (well, i am still stupid now) because of the fact that I can't speak in Chinese languages. My cousins , aunts, uncles, friends and teachers kinda mock me or always ask me whether I'm Chinese or not because I can't speak in Chinese languages like them. But as the time goes by, I met some people that are also Chinese but can't speak any Chinese languages too. 
That fact makes me think like "well, I'm not the only one !"
I know that's not good, but that kinda motivate me that sometimes its okay to be different :)
Everyone has their own flaws  that make them unique .
I don't feel proud with it, but i do feel kinda grateful with it. Because that makes me different and unique .

For those people who read this and got the same problem like me, don't feel bad with it (well, actually you will), just let it be. Your flaws are your magic . Magic that makes you be you and unique .

NB : forgive me if there are some mistakes (grammar ? spell ? or  something like that)

10 - 10 - 2014

#latepost

Hey, guys...
So, pada hari Jumat tepatnya tanggal 10-10-2014 yang lalu, sekolah kami mengadakan OutBond di Palm Spring, Batam. Latepost sih, but it's ok :P
I just feel like i want to share it :)
So ...



TADAAAAA ..............

Beyonce - If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
'Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)
 
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
'Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed
 
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you 
You thought wrong
 
 But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah, you don’t understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

USD ?

Hello, readers
So, yaa sekitar 2 hari yang lalu ane baru aja dapat pengumuman mengenai murid / calon mahasiswa yang diterima jalur prestasi oleh Universitas Sanata Dharma.
And hasilnya ??

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VJ lulus !! lulus masuk sastra inggris. Yep, ane memang pilih sastra inggris. I felt happy, but i didn't feel excited, is that a wrong thing ?
why ?
1. Karena beberapa teman VJ ada yang tidak masuk sesuai dengan jurusan utama yang mereka inginkan, ya pastinya VJ ikut sedih dong karena kalau itu ane pasti ane bakalan sedih juga dong .
2. Kata emak ane, kalau gak ada teman ane yang 1 kost dengan ane, gk bakal diizinkan ke Jogja. What ????
3. Masalah biaya

VJ mau bahas mengenai masalah biaya. Sebenarnya keluarga ane tidak terlalu mampu untuk membiayai kuliah ane ke Jogja, but still papa ane suruh ane ke sana untuk belajar. Awalnya senang banget pas papa VJ ngomong seperti itu, but di akhir kata papa ane bilang "tidak apa-apa, nanti papa pinjam duit sama teman papa." (alias hutang) OMG !
Pastinya VJ jadi ada rasa bersalah juga, karena mau biayain uang kuliah VJ akhirnya papa VJ rela pinjam uang sama temannya. Jadi bingung mau pergi ke Jogja atau gk. Disaat yang bersamaan di Batam juga ada jurusan sastra inggris, di Universitas Putra Batam. Tapi, ya lebih bagus yang di Sanata Dharma. Hehehe
VJ ingin ke Jogja karena bisa melatih kemandirian , kedisiplinan dan menambah pengalaman VJ. Dan selain itu memang sudah lama VJ pengen masuk ke Sanata Dharma untuk kuliah sastra inggris. Tapi jika itu membuat ortu VJ harus pergi pinjam uang sana sini, VJ pun jadi ragu. Agak gk rela gitu.

VJ masih ingat pada saat itu mama ane lagi cuci baju, lalu karena udah kelas 3 SMA ya biasanya pada ngomongin tempat kuliah, jurusan kuliah, dll. So, VJ beraniin diri untuk bilang ke mama VJ kalau VJ mau kuliah. Pada saat itu VJ bilang di Putra Batam saja karena lebih murah daripada Sanata Dharma (uang pembangunan; Sanata Dharma : Rp 14.000.000 setelah beasiswa, sedangkan Putra Batam kurang lebih Rp 5.000.000). Lalu tiba-tiba mama VJ menjawabnya dengan nada ingin menangis (bayangin sendiri yaa), mama ane bilang " Seandainya cukup uang pasti mama kasih kamu kuliah, tapi sekarang sudah tidak ada uang. Bayar SPP kamu dan adik-adik kamu aja susah, apalagi untuk bayar biaya kuliah ! Mending cari kerja saja." (FYI : adik VJ ada 4)
Sejujur-jujurnya VJ sedih banget, kenapa ortu VJ gak suruh coba yang beasiswa dulu, siapa tau dapet jadi gk usah bayar mahal-mahal. But at the same time, VJ ngerti maksud mama ane gk sekasar itu dan memang tidak cukup biaya.
Jeng...Jeng...Jeng...
VJ galau dehh, disaat teman-teman VJ pada ngomongin kuliah, VJ malah gk tau bakal bisa kuliah atau tidak. Lalu sekolah  VJ tawarin untuk beri beasiswa kepada VJ untuk kuliah gitu, tapi syaratnya habis lulus kuliah harus kerja disekolah VJ, hanya saja hingga sekarang kabarnya masih belum jelas kerja berapa tahun. Lalu VJ bilang ke papa kalau VJ mau yang Sanata Dharma, lalu VJ diam-diam kirim formulir jalur prestasi sama teman-teman VJ yang lain. Akhirnya papa VJ setuju ! but, yaa harus pinjam duit/hutang gitu.

Sampai saat ini VJ masih gak tau bakal gimana ke depannya. Tapi VJ harap bisa ke Jogja, kalau tidak bisa mungkin VJ bakal fokus kerja dulu, baru kuliah. Entahlah, hanya sekedar rencana.

 ~the end