Its kinda embarrassing, but i think that's fine *LOL*
So,
I'm 17 years old and I'm Chinese, but i can't speak any Chinese languages ...
Yes, that's absolutely true
Do i proud with it ? NO !
But fortunately I still can understand some words in Chinese languages :P
When I was a kid, my mom and dad were so busy with their job and I had my own baby sitter, so my baby sitter wasn't a Chinese person, so of course she communicated with me in Indonesia language. Then, I studied Mandarin for the very first time when i was about in 4th grade or 5th grade in elementary school, and it was only the basic one.
Then, when i was about 11 or 12 years old, I studied at this one school that known best for its Mandarin language. I studied there for almost 6 years now (3 years for Junior High School, almost another 3 years for Senior High School) and guess what ?
I just still can't speak in any Chinese language
Couple of years ago, I just felt like I was so damn stupid (well, i am still stupid now) because of the fact that I can't speak in Chinese languages. My cousins , aunts, uncles, friends and teachers kinda mock me or always ask me whether I'm Chinese or not because I can't speak in Chinese languages like them. But as the time goes by, I met some people that are also Chinese but can't speak any Chinese languages too.
That fact makes me think like "well, I'm not the only one !"
I know that's not good, but that kinda motivate me that sometimes its okay to be different :)
Everyone has their own flaws that make them unique .
I don't feel proud with it, but i do feel kinda grateful with it. Because that makes me different and unique .
For those people who read this and got the same problem like me, don't feel bad with it (well, actually you will), just let it be. Your flaws are your magic . Magic that makes you be you and unique .
NB : forgive me if there are some mistakes (grammar ? spell ? or something like that)
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